Dear Sweet Lord,

i was so stressed these past few days..my mind is full of unnecessary things..i was so hurt. my wounds not healing, my heart was tormently broken..there's nothing left inside me but my own soul seeking for your LOVE..i'm sorry..i know that i should'nt feel this way. giving a chance to live is a blessing already.. i was so blinded by all the criticisms, pain, disappointmnts. tell me what to do Lord..i'm feeling hopeless.. let Your light shine upon me.. may YOU guide me. teach me the right way. BE WITH ME.

"bless my life

take away the shame

allow me to experience

Your most amazing grace..

fill my heart

it's empty and frail

make me whole again LORD,

mend my broken soul

I offer my life to you LORD, with all my strength I worship you..

and I give my all, take away the shame

I am yours oh GOD,

lead me to Your arms,

and I give YOU praise,

I rejoice in YOu, till the end of my days I give my all.."

BELIEVE.

for all the criticisms, the hardships, sacrifices, disappointments, pain.. i BELIEVE that there is one GOD that will endure all these for ME.












a MAN that will stand.

will never let go of my HAND..

HIM who will sacrifice HIS own life..

HE who will drink HIS own BLOOD..

GOD who will not condemn me..

" you gave your all.. unworthy as I am..
you have died for me LORD, and now I am fress..
You're the only reason why my heart leaps for joy..
I'll give YOU back the glory, LORD mold me and use me.. "

no reply..

i used to email him for the simplest reason, i miss him so much.. if there's just a second chance. i'll surely grab it and i'll treasure everything.. i hate myself for not giving him a chance before. i was so worried pero mas mahirap pla pag hindi sinubukan.. mas pagsisihan mu tlga..now that he's with someone else, wla na qng magawa..naghihintay n ln ng kakarampot na time and attention..i'm so so stupid.. now i'm letting my heart endure the pain..wounded? nope. aq ln nmn nanakit sa sarili q..mas tamang sabihing panghihinayang ung naramdaman q..sna matapos na..nxt chapter pls..

WE'RE DONE!

I thought you were my friend. I cried but you’re not there. I almost ended up my life but you just stared at me like I was a thing that really didn’t exist. I knocked but you did not open your door, you even try to lock your windows. I begged for food but you gave me nothing. I said I’m thirsty but you let me drink my sweat. You didn’t bother to ask if I’m ok. What happened? Is it because I have nothing to give that’s why you left me? Now you called me SELFISH..for what reason? Huh??

In this world, you don’t need to have a beautiful dress to have a happy life; you don’t even have to look good because good person never bother to love good faces with empty hearts. Don’t play with the boys because they know the game than you. Respect yourself. Try to look back. Check the past and you’ll see that you missed a thing that’s very important: LEARN TO GIVE. And most importantly, remember that when you lose a friend, its very hard to gain one.

hot chick... *sigh*

last week, i felt like ending my life with pills overdose and all those suicidal stuffs.. i was so sick and tired of my everyday routine, so damn wasted! But the moment I saw my mom cried I realized that I’m not just living for myself but also for those people who believe in me. She’s really a gift from God. Now, I’m actually facing the world with full strength.. I’m still wounded but life is all about sacrifices and disappointments. One friend asked me: “what keeps you motivated to go on?” and the only answer I have in my mind is my FAMILY.

HELP!

Its been a year.so many things happened..cnt blame myself qng bkt hndi aq nkpgblog for one whole month..everytime that I’m in the front of a computer with a mouse in my right hand and keyboard in front, wla tlga qng maisulat.pkirmdm q I cnt even write a simple sentence. It’s been a tough month for me.
- I’ve became part of the P1 agents whose taking in calls for premium (best) customers..
- My mom was diagnosed of having a Urinary Tract Infection
- My sister is now studying..
- Financial problems na hindi na natapos tapos..
I cnt even sleep well. I dnt knw. I’m thinking if this is really me, my life now is full of..(cnt even think of the right words..) I dnt wanna blame my job, not even my parents or my friends..wlng dpat sisihin kundi ung sarili q..happiness is a choice..i dnt knw. Pkirmdm q wla ng dahilan pra tumawa..i’m soooo sad right now.pkirmdm q sasabog ung puso q..not because I’m happy..but because it hurts so much..its something like I’m in a dark room..no way to get out. Doors are closed and there’s no windows. There’s no escape!!