Thursday, January 28, 2010
epoy and i are planning to start our own crew.. wer planning to have rehearsal on sunday though we still dnt have a place. haha. we'll try to make crazy routines. pop locks, slidin' and crazy lousy moves. dancing is my passion, having my own crew and compete is my wildest dream but i think i'm totaly loosing it. yeah right. i just wanna dance and die dancing..=p
i just miss dancing so much..i miss sliding and kickin and doing popping stuffs. i want to stretch my body and dance like there's no end. for me dancing is my life and its just so sad that i cnt do it now. i know that i always have a choice but i always have to consider things and prioritize what's more important. dancing is really a big part of my life. if i dance, i feel like i have so much strength that i can do everything. i miss my crew so much. those memories that we spent together creating routines, those dirty shirts that we keep on wearing everytime we have rehearsals..hays. i want to slide and do pop locks..
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
The Awakening
A time comes in your life when you finally get it. When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!
Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening. You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter). and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you, and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect, and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are and its OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself, and in the process a sense of newly found confidence is born of self-approval.
You stop bitching and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that not everyone will always be there for you, and that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers, and you begin to accept people as they are, and to over look their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look, how much you shouldn't weigh, what you should wear, where you should shop, what you should drive, how and where you should live, what you should do for a living, who you should sleep with, who you should marry, what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children, or what you owe your parents.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing, and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with, and in the process you learn to go with your instincts. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving, and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable, or important because of the man or woman on your arm or the child that bears your name.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations, and outcomes. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love. and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms. Just to make you happy. And, you learn that 'alone' does not mean lonely.
And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you "stack up." You also stop working so hard at putting feelings aside, smoothing things over, and ignoring your needs.
You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK. . . and that it is your right to want things that you want. and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands. You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity, and respect, and you will not settle for less. And you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you, to glorify you with his or her touch. and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.
And you learn that your body really is your temple. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water, and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear, so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul, so you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn that, for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve. and that much of life is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for, and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success, you need direction, discipline, and perseverance.
You also learn that no one can do it all alone and its OK to risk asking for help. You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time: FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears, because you know that whatever happens you can handle it, and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve, and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - the ego.
You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy, and resentment must be understood and redirected, or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.
You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself. by yourself, and you try to make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart's desire. And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.
Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.
Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening. You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter). and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you, and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect, and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are and its OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself, and in the process a sense of newly found confidence is born of self-approval.
You stop bitching and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that not everyone will always be there for you, and that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers, and you begin to accept people as they are, and to over look their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look, how much you shouldn't weigh, what you should wear, where you should shop, what you should drive, how and where you should live, what you should do for a living, who you should sleep with, who you should marry, what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children, or what you owe your parents.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing, and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with, and in the process you learn to go with your instincts. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving, and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable, or important because of the man or woman on your arm or the child that bears your name.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations, and outcomes. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love. and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms. Just to make you happy. And, you learn that 'alone' does not mean lonely.
And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you "stack up." You also stop working so hard at putting feelings aside, smoothing things over, and ignoring your needs.
You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK. . . and that it is your right to want things that you want. and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands. You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity, and respect, and you will not settle for less. And you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you, to glorify you with his or her touch. and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.
And you learn that your body really is your temple. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water, and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear, so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul, so you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn that, for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve. and that much of life is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for, and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success, you need direction, discipline, and perseverance.
You also learn that no one can do it all alone and its OK to risk asking for help. You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time: FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears, because you know that whatever happens you can handle it, and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve, and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - the ego.
You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy, and resentment must be understood and redirected, or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.
You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself. by yourself, and you try to make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart's desire. And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.
Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.
irritating!
there was this man from my past who went back and turned my world upside down.. i thought its gonna be the start of something i've been waiting for years.. but everything just turn into nothing..sad. the guy lied. letting me fall to something that's not true, well goodluck! i just hate him so much and i just hate myself. now its hard for me to trust again. maybe there's no right man for me. my mom always tells me that the right guy will come at the right time. but now i think its hard to believe that there is really a man there who knows how to love unconditionally. a man you can rely on. a man who's true to himself..harsh!
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
its been a month
hello..im just so happy, i was able to post a new blog..its been a month..so busy kxe..haha! serious! happenings??
ahm, i was asked to be the speaker of PUP_YFC sem-end party held last 10/09/09..akalain mu un! so blessed!
si ONDOY nanalanta ng madameng pamilya..at!! take note! stranded aq.. its like, 9am out q, nakauwe aq samen 12 midnight na.. and para makauwi ln, sinuong namen ung baha lagpas tao...=s
si KOYA(???), nagparamdam, cnbi kame n dw..demanding!! wag q nga itxt..haha!
(wla na q msbe..)
ahm, i was asked to be the speaker of PUP_YFC sem-end party held last 10/09/09..akalain mu un! so blessed!
si ONDOY nanalanta ng madameng pamilya..at!! take note! stranded aq.. its like, 9am out q, nakauwe aq samen 12 midnight na.. and para makauwi ln, sinuong namen ung baha lagpas tao...=s
si KOYA(???), nagparamdam, cnbi kame n dw..demanding!! wag q nga itxt..haha!
(wla na q msbe..)
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
ATP
-its not an easy task..
lage qng ngarag..haha! pero sobrang naeenjoy q xa! ansarap ng marameng nagmamahal. haha! alam q lahat hndi q mapi-please pero kxe if we will just depend our actions sa mga taong walang magawa kundi magmalinis, wala na! sira ang buhay! as long as i'm doing my job, wala nmn sigurong problema.
sobrang sarap kxma ng mga trainers. kahit palage silang busy, may time pa rin sila to smile at you..lam mu ung tipong gaganda talaga ung araw mu kxe ansarap sa pakiramdam..ung mga trainees nmn they're like kids playing around. ang iingay! haha..though minsan nakakapraning sila, sobrang nageenjoy aq kapag kxma q cla..
before sobrang takot ako mapagalitan, uq rin nakakarining ng bad comments from other people, pero sabi nga as you grow, mag-iiba na rin perception mu. i'm just a human being, prone sa pagkakamali pero i believe that there will always be a time na maitatama mu lahat ng bagay..mahal q trabaho q ng sobra.as in. kaya i'm doing everything not just because of money..sabi q nga its not that important, i'm doing my best because my work is my passion..kakabit na nang bituka q.. (hikab...)
bsta masaya maging ATP!!
mahirap na masarap! sh...ttt!!!
lage qng ngarag..haha! pero sobrang naeenjoy q xa! ansarap ng marameng nagmamahal. haha! alam q lahat hndi q mapi-please pero kxe if we will just depend our actions sa mga taong walang magawa kundi magmalinis, wala na! sira ang buhay! as long as i'm doing my job, wala nmn sigurong problema.
sobrang sarap kxma ng mga trainers. kahit palage silang busy, may time pa rin sila to smile at you..lam mu ung tipong gaganda talaga ung araw mu kxe ansarap sa pakiramdam..ung mga trainees nmn they're like kids playing around. ang iingay! haha..though minsan nakakapraning sila, sobrang nageenjoy aq kapag kxma q cla..
before sobrang takot ako mapagalitan, uq rin nakakarining ng bad comments from other people, pero sabi nga as you grow, mag-iiba na rin perception mu. i'm just a human being, prone sa pagkakamali pero i believe that there will always be a time na maitatama mu lahat ng bagay..mahal q trabaho q ng sobra.as in. kaya i'm doing everything not just because of money..sabi q nga its not that important, i'm doing my best because my work is my passion..kakabit na nang bituka q.. (hikab...)
bsta masaya maging ATP!!
mahirap na masarap! sh...ttt!!!
inarte ln..
after 21 years, i can say na sobrang dameng changes sa buhay q..physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually..lht ng aspects..now i know my priorities..i believe that GOD will always be there, I'm giving all to Him. mas mahal q pamilya q..money is not really important for me. auq na maging madamot. sawa na rin aqng maging blacksheep..hindi na rin aq nagmamadaling magkaboyfriend..lam q the right guy will come at the right time..true love waits ika nga..!!
i'm just so happy with my life. i'm not rich pero sobrang blessed aq..sa pamilya pln. they are so supportive.my parents are really like my bestfriends..lahat nasasabi q..kahit ung meju *** na..my sister is so supportive din..ganun din nmn aq sakanya.. mas minahal q kapatid q naun, like 3 yrs syang huminto para makatapos aq..kaya as mush as possible, gusto ko ibigay lahat sakanya..she deserves it.. my family deserves my time and love.
i love my friends so much..alam nila un. kaya ang sakit pag parang wla silang pakialam sa pwede qng maramdaman,. minsan naiinis din aq sa sarili q kxe sobra qng magmahal..pero un aq eh..anu mggwa q..but anyweiz, kanya kanya din kxe ang tao.. if you are really a true friend then accept the person for what he/she is.
ahm, nagflash back lang sakin lahat..haha..nung naging certified YOUTH FOR CHRIST aq..nainlove.lahat na ng ka-cornyhan! i just realized talent q pla magsketch..haha..ahm, dameng discoveries, realizations..dameng nasayang na ____ (f*@#%!!) haha! pero siguro ganun talaga. for now all i can say is that i'm happy with what i'm doing, i'm contented of what i have and most importantly mas minahal q na sarili q. minsan ok pala sa pakirmdm ung magalit.. these past few weeks, dameng ka-bullshitan ngyare, i asked God, na parang He's letting me carry all the burdens that i'm too tired to walk..i felt like i just wanna give up..pero sabi nga ng puso't isip q, giving up is not an option for me.. lahat kxe may tamang timing, lahat ng ngyyre may reason si GOD. just look on the positive side. hindi man maging maganda sa naun, ddting at ddting ung time na marerealize mu na, ok pla n nyare to,,atleast may natutunan aq..
people always say na napaka-fragile aq..hindi totoo un..mapagmahal ln aq..=) bsta. tpos na chapter 1-21. chapter 22 na..abangan..malay mu makilala q na si mr.right!! haha!
i'm just so happy with my life. i'm not rich pero sobrang blessed aq..sa pamilya pln. they are so supportive.my parents are really like my bestfriends..lahat nasasabi q..kahit ung meju *** na..my sister is so supportive din..ganun din nmn aq sakanya.. mas minahal q kapatid q naun, like 3 yrs syang huminto para makatapos aq..kaya as mush as possible, gusto ko ibigay lahat sakanya..she deserves it.. my family deserves my time and love.
i love my friends so much..alam nila un. kaya ang sakit pag parang wla silang pakialam sa pwede qng maramdaman,. minsan naiinis din aq sa sarili q kxe sobra qng magmahal..pero un aq eh..anu mggwa q..but anyweiz, kanya kanya din kxe ang tao.. if you are really a true friend then accept the person for what he/she is.
ahm, nagflash back lang sakin lahat..haha..nung naging certified YOUTH FOR CHRIST aq..nainlove.lahat na ng ka-cornyhan! i just realized talent q pla magsketch..haha..ahm, dameng discoveries, realizations..dameng nasayang na ____ (f*@#%!!) haha! pero siguro ganun talaga. for now all i can say is that i'm happy with what i'm doing, i'm contented of what i have and most importantly mas minahal q na sarili q. minsan ok pala sa pakirmdm ung magalit.. these past few weeks, dameng ka-bullshitan ngyare, i asked God, na parang He's letting me carry all the burdens that i'm too tired to walk..i felt like i just wanna give up..pero sabi nga ng puso't isip q, giving up is not an option for me.. lahat kxe may tamang timing, lahat ng ngyyre may reason si GOD. just look on the positive side. hindi man maging maganda sa naun, ddting at ddting ung time na marerealize mu na, ok pla n nyare to,,atleast may natutunan aq..
people always say na napaka-fragile aq..hindi totoo un..mapagmahal ln aq..=) bsta. tpos na chapter 1-21. chapter 22 na..abangan..malay mu makilala q na si mr.right!! haha!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
..it was a great event.. i enjoyed the food and the music..=) but the most unforgettable moment was when the knight shift performed!!! woohhh!! joni was so great. promise! 'm not aware that he can play drums that well..parang tambay ln kxe si joni sa totoong buhay eh.. haha! but he's really great! KUDOS!Thursday, September 10, 2009
payong kaibigan..
"walang mahirap sa taong nagsisikap."
"mahirap makipagkaibigan sa taong hindi totoo sa sarili."
"manalamin bago manghusga."
"learn to appreciate."
"read books, it'll help."
"wag maging self-centered."
"umintindi wag lang basta makinig."
"give."
"never judge a person."
"do not expect too much."
"disappointed ka, magsuicide kna lang."
"never under-estimate small people, parang buhangin yan, nakakapuwing, parang surot nangangagat!"
"keep your feet on the ground. wla kang pakpak para lumipad."
"time will heal."
"learn to accept changes."
"if its not for you, look for other opportunity."
"mahirap makipagkaibigan sa taong hindi totoo sa sarili."
"manalamin bago manghusga."
"learn to appreciate."
"read books, it'll help."
"wag maging self-centered."
"umintindi wag lang basta makinig."
"give."
"never judge a person."
"do not expect too much."
"disappointed ka, magsuicide kna lang."
"never under-estimate small people, parang buhangin yan, nakakapuwing, parang surot nangangagat!"
"keep your feet on the ground. wla kang pakpak para lumipad."
"time will heal."
"learn to accept changes."
"if its not for you, look for other opportunity."
....last but not the least..PRAY
DANCING IS MY PASSION
So you can't dance?
Not at all?
Not even one step?
How can you say
that you've taken any
trouble to live
when you won't even try to dance?
Dance is music made visible.
Dance is the world's most famous metaphor.
Dance is silent poetry.
Dance is the mother of all arts.
Dance is the hidden language of the soul.
Dancers are the athletes of God.
Nothing is more revealing than DANCING.
Dancing is dreaming with your feet.
Dance to express, not to impress.
Dance first, think later, it's the natural order.
Dance like nobody's watching.
Let the music move your body.
All it takes is to convince your mind to move your feet.
No one can arrive from being talent alone. God gives talent, work trangresses talent.
To touch, to move, to inspire. This is the true gift of DANCE.
EVERYONE can dance.
The only way to do it, is to believe in yourself and do it.
Not at all?
Not even one step?
How can you say
that you've taken any
trouble to live
when you won't even try to dance?
Dance is music made visible.
Dance is the world's most famous metaphor.
Dance is silent poetry.
Dance is the mother of all arts.
Dance is the hidden language of the soul.
Dancers are the athletes of God.
Nothing is more revealing than DANCING.
Dancing is dreaming with your feet.
Dance to express, not to impress.
Dance first, think later, it's the natural order.
Dance like nobody's watching.
Let the music move your body.
All it takes is to convince your mind to move your feet.
No one can arrive from being talent alone. God gives talent, work trangresses talent.
To touch, to move, to inspire. This is the true gift of DANCE.
EVERYONE can dance.
The only way to do it, is to believe in yourself and do it.
Monday, September 7, 2009
'm happy!!
today is the most awaited day of my life..cnt believe it, i checked my email last sat sa office and grabe, 35msgs!!! whow!! i'm part of the training team!! prng di p rin totoo..sobrang ang lakeng blessing! mamya, hindi ko alm ang mga mngyyre..pero super excited ln dn tlga q..!!
i'll have my shift update activity on tuesday and friday!!
so excited!
i'll have my shift update activity on tuesday and friday!!
so excited!
Strength or Fortitude
Your Tarot Reading drew the Strength or Fortitude card. This card shows you that you will soon take a new control over the way you handle your life. This self contol will help you bring resolve and reconciliation to your live. You will feel a new found strength inside you after this transitional phase. Optimism, and Generosity will play a important roll.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Wagi sa patigasan ng puso!
ayun to sa facebook!! ahaha!
Wagi sa patigasan ng puso! "Pag-ibig?" Mukhang wala yata yun sa bokabularyo mo. Well, nakikipag-boyfriend/girlfriend ka pa din, but you treat your romantic relationships na parang business: professional, calculated, de numero ang kilos. Nakokornihan ka sa sobrang romantic displays of affection at sa mga kadalasang abubot ng romance, in fact corny sa'yo ang mga terms of endearment like "Babes" (eew!), "Honey" (yuck!) at "creampuff" (please lang, nakakasuka na ha!) Medyo may pagka-conservative ka, stiff, and a bit self-centered. You're a no-nonsense person, and definitely hindi uubra sa'yo ang monkey business. Kung loloko-loko ang partner mo, tsugi agad sya, sisipain mo pa sya palabas ng pinto, sa korte suprema na lang sya magpaliwanag. In fact, sa sobrang wais mo pagdating sa pag-ibig, malamang tumanda kang binata/dalaga. Advice: huwag masyado maging cynical, masarap din yatang magpakatanga sa pag-ibig paminsan-minsan.
Wagi sa patigasan ng puso! "Pag-ibig?" Mukhang wala yata yun sa bokabularyo mo. Well, nakikipag-boyfriend/girlfriend ka pa din, but you treat your romantic relationships na parang business: professional, calculated, de numero ang kilos. Nakokornihan ka sa sobrang romantic displays of affection at sa mga kadalasang abubot ng romance, in fact corny sa'yo ang mga terms of endearment like "Babes" (eew!), "Honey" (yuck!) at "creampuff" (please lang, nakakasuka na ha!) Medyo may pagka-conservative ka, stiff, and a bit self-centered. You're a no-nonsense person, and definitely hindi uubra sa'yo ang monkey business. Kung loloko-loko ang partner mo, tsugi agad sya, sisipain mo pa sya palabas ng pinto, sa korte suprema na lang sya magpaliwanag. In fact, sa sobrang wais mo pagdating sa pag-ibig, malamang tumanda kang binata/dalaga. Advice: huwag masyado maging cynical, masarap din yatang magpakatanga sa pag-ibig paminsan-minsan.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
unforgettable moment..
these past few weeks were full of surprises..whoo! i was chosen as an ATP! i'm so happy that i did it..of course with the help of my friends, never-ending support and love from my family and so much blessing from GOD. i'll start working as an ATP nxt week..yes. i'm excited but somehow scared. i'm afraid of criticism, but those people who believe that i can make it, brings so much joy and inspiration to me..=) i know that GOD won't give it if its not for me..i will be given 15-45 days to showcase my skills in handling classes..i'll be in shift updates maybe starting nxt week..i'm just so blessed that someone just told me na malayo mararating ko and that i'm special..i really appreciate the fact that people trust me. GOD make things possible. i never imagined that i could go this far. well..kung hindi naman ako makapasa, still i'm blessed.
"of course you can. just believe in urself. i believe in you. malayo maaabot mu. congratss." - my TEAM CAPTAIN
"of course you can. just believe in urself. i believe in you. malayo maaabot mu. congratss." - my TEAM CAPTAIN
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Dear Sweet Lord,
i was so stressed these past few days..my mind is full of unnecessary things..i was so hurt. my wounds not healing, my heart was tormently broken..there's nothing left inside me but my own soul seeking for your LOVE..i'm sorry..i know that i should'nt feel this way. giving a chance to live is a blessing already.. i was so blinded by all the criticisms, pain, disappointmnts. tell me what to do Lord..i'm feeling hopeless.. let Your light shine upon me.. may YOU guide me. teach me the right way. BE WITH ME.
i was so stressed these past few days..my mind is full of unnecessary things..i was so hurt. my wounds not healing, my heart was tormently broken..there's nothing left inside me but my own soul seeking for your LOVE..i'm sorry..i know that i should'nt feel this way. giving a chance to live is a blessing already.. i was so blinded by all the criticisms, pain, disappointmnts. tell me what to do Lord..i'm feeling hopeless.. let Your light shine upon me.. may YOU guide me. teach me the right way. BE WITH ME.
"bless my life
take away the shame
allow me to experience
Your most amazing grace..
fill my heart
it's empty and frail
make me whole again LORD,
mend my broken soul
I offer my life to you LORD, with all my strength I worship you..
and I give my all, take away the shame
I am yours oh GOD,
lead me to Your arms,
and I give YOU praise,
I rejoice in YOu, till the end of my days I give my all.."
BELIEVE.
for all the criticisms, the hardships, sacrifices, disappointments, pain.. i BELIEVE that there is one GOD that will endure all these for ME.
a MAN that will stand.
will never let go of my HAND..
HIM who will sacrifice HIS own life..
HE who will drink HIS own BLOOD..
GOD who will not condemn me..
" you gave your all.. unworthy as I am..
you have died for me LORD, and now I am fress..
You're the only reason why my heart leaps for joy..
I'll give YOU back the glory, LORD mold me and use me.. "
a MAN that will stand.
will never let go of my HAND..
HIM who will sacrifice HIS own life..
HE who will drink HIS own BLOOD..
GOD who will not condemn me..
" you gave your all.. unworthy as I am..
you have died for me LORD, and now I am fress..
You're the only reason why my heart leaps for joy..
I'll give YOU back the glory, LORD mold me and use me.. "
no reply..
i used to email him for the simplest reason, i miss him so much.. if there's just a second chance. i'll surely grab it and i'll treasure everything.. i hate myself for not giving him a chance before. i was so worried pero mas mahirap pla pag hindi sinubukan.. mas pagsisihan mu tlga..now that he's with someone else, wla na qng magawa..naghihintay n ln ng kakarampot na time and attention..i'm so so stupid.. now i'm letting my heart endure the pain..wounded? nope. aq ln nmn nanakit sa sarili q..mas tamang sabihing panghihinayang ung naramdaman q..sna matapos na..nxt chapter pls..
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